Tuesday, January 01, 2008

A New Look for a New Year

I am definitely ready to put 2007 behind me as I look towards the blessings to come of 2008. And what better way to do that than with a new blog layout? OK, so a Maui vacation or a fabulous purse may actually be a better way, but on my budget I'm going with the new blog layout. Maybe one day this year I might even learn how to may my own unique one of a kind blog layout. Just maybe.

So, what am I saying good-bye to? Lots, actually, since 2007 was pretty much full of crap. Like a 3rd failed IUI. Making the decision to move onto IVF. A natural pregnancy (actually, that part was pretty cool, while it lasted). Miscarriage and subsequent D&C. Making the decision again to move onto IVF. Becoming THAT person. You know, the one who even fails IVF. Taking on more debt that I ever could have imagined. And lastly, facing the reality of needing to go back to full time teaching.

Before I start to sound too negative there really were some good parts of 2007. I was able to work as little as I needed to in order to do what I needed to go. I did manage to GET pregnant, proving that my rusty old parts do work a little bit. We at least had the resources to try IVF. My dad continued to get stronger and learn to do a few things. We did take a couple of trips to Las Vegas, Sedona and California. We did have lots of visits from family and friends.

But what am I looking forward to in 2008? First of all, NO MORE fertility drugs, exams, tests or procedures. I can't tell you what a huge relief this is. For the first time in 2 years I'm not under the influence of fertility drugs or a slave to peeing on little sticks. And you know what? I feel good. I physically feel good. I actually feel a remarkable sense of peace. Like this is the absolute right thing to do. And while I didn't lose any weight while undergoing fertility treatments I didn't gain any either, like most people do. In fact, now I can focus on losing weight. Mostly though I'm looking forward to working our way through the adoption process. This is something that, given time, will result in a real live baby for us. And that's what we want more than anything in the world. Despite my grumblings I am actually looking forward to teaching full time again. This won't happen until August, but I may get my feet wet come spring time. And, eternal optimist that I am, I'm looking forward to my dad regaining more strength and mobility and function, and to my mom regaining her sanity and getting more help.

In the coming days I will post about some of the specifics of what I would like to do this next year. Not resolutions, merely things to do.

And in the meantime I most sincerely wish you a prosperous New Year in which all of your dreams come true.
And I'm wishing

12 comments:

  1. 2008 is going to be a great year for you! I feel fortunate to be able to watch your journey unfold. I know it's going to be exciting and worthwhile for you!!!

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  2. Just wanted to say this is a really good wrapping up of 2007 for you... I guess many of us have things that were wonderful in '07 (like pregnancies) and things that still hurt us (like miscarriages). I'm just happy to hear you have such clarity of what you want in '08 and you're pursuing it with diligence! Wishing you a lovely beginning of the year!

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  3. Happy New Year and good luck for 2008. It sounds like a good path.

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  4. Love the new look=) Always good to start fresh! Hoping that 2008 is a very good year for you!

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  5. I feel the same way...you are totally on the same page as me. Here is hoping that 2008 will finally provide us with our child...

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  6. Love the new look. . .

    I am going to steal from another blogger, who had named 2008 "Two Thousand and Great" because she and her husband were starting the adoption process and she was also really excited about no IF treatments.

    So here is to a healthy and happy Two Thousand and GREAT!!!!!

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  7. Love the new look. I was so confused when I surfed over at first. :-)

    And, this was a great post--very optimistic despite a tough year. I'm always inspired by your optimism. it's contagious. :-)

    Wishing you the very best in 2008!

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  8. Happy new year to you as well!

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  9. I opened your blog and was like, wha? Did I click the wrong link? But nice change:-)

    On the being free, honestly, I'm jealous of that. I'm not willing to stop yet, but the no more sticks, no more drugs - it sounds like a very very nice place to be.

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  10. Happy Happy New Year! I hope that all your dreams come true this year.

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  11. I can't wait to be there and support you as you go through this journey! I am so excited for you, and wish all the best for you! See you soon!

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  12. I love the new look. Here's to a year filled with only joy for you!

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