Monday, October 22, 2007

Knocked Down, Not Up

I didn't mind having a headache when there was still hope that I might be pregnant. However, this is my 3rd day of this headache since confirming that I am not pregnant. And it stinks. It starts first thing in the morning and doesn't leave until mid afternoon.
Saturday morning's remedy proved to be a huge mistake. Note to self (and everyone else): a breakfast burrito, chased with 2 excedrin and 800 mg of motrin and a fistful of vitamins is a recipe for disaster. I spent 20 minutes throwing up and then had an upset stomach for the rest of the day. And still had a headache until the afternoon.
It seems that all that helps this headache is laying in the recliner with a warm rice sock on my head, napping or watching TV. As you can see, sometimes my sweet Molly Pie joins me, and that helps a lot. Please don't hold my dirty, stingy hair against me.
But, I'm OK. We're OK. We have a plan, we still have options. During the next week we will be getting much more information. I still haven't decided just how much of the next adventure I plan to share here. I am concerned about the reaction that some people we know in real life might have and I don't want to be in the position of having our potential kids treated differently. So, maybe more to come later.
In the meantime, I'm heading back to the recliner with my hot rice sock and remote. Then I need to get off my duff and get to the gym and also get some housekeeping done before the tutoring kids start showing up this afternoon. Tonight is my support group meeting, so I couldn't ask for better timing on that.


  1. Anonymous9:50 AM

    It's Katie - I am commenting anonymously due to computer issues. I just wanted to say that I am still thinking about you. I also had the post-progesterone headache last cycle - it took four days for it to go away. My RE said it is a response to the hormones. I am glad to hear that you have plans moving forward. If you choose to share them with us, I will consider myself blessed to follow your journey. If you choose to keep it to yourself, then know that I am still praying for you, and check in when you can!

  2. Kudos to Katie's comment above. I, too, hope you share your journey again with us, but certainly can respect your privacy. I am so proud of you--you seem to be handling everything so well. I would be a nut case and definitly be throwing myself a pity party about now. One of the other message boards I am on, someone left the neatest quote one day that really convicted me. It is "My love is greater than my fear." That's why we all have hope.

    Chin up! There are better days ahead!

  3. Thinking of you, sweetie. And good luck coming up with your next steps.

  4. Keeping you in my thoughts. Frankly, you look very cozy there with Molly Pie.

    I hope you can feel like sharing your next steps, but if not, I wish you luck on whatever they are!

  5. Thinking of you and whatever your future hold. and i am wishng away that pesky headache

  6. Anonymous1:58 PM

    Sometimes the only thing that works is Excedrin Migraine. It makes me shaky from the caffeine, but it is worth it to end those headaches.

    Laurie D.

  7. Hi there,
    I have been following your blog for a while, and I too had a negative last week. I am coming to terms with some things and trying to grasp our future. I admire your strength and determination and GOD BLESS this internet, it is the best support system out there.

  8. Anonymous3:39 PM

    I'm sorry, I've been so obssesed with my own problems that I did not get your bad news until today. I am so, so, so sorry. I know it doesn't really help to have me say it but it's true.

    I hope that your headache gets better and that you start to feel more like yourself soon. also whatever you decide is fine with us, we respect your privacy but good luck no mater what you choose to do.

  9. I'm popping over from The Lushery. Sorry about your recent BFN. I have faced and somewhat moved on from learning I would never have my biological child. Well, I guess you could argue that I may have a biological child, just not a genetic one. We are in a DE cycle and things look good so far.

    That is a long way of saying that I know this is a very big deal and I am wishing you peace on your journey.

    I hope the headache dissipates soon too.

  10. Can't wait to see you tonight...and if you don't wanna wash your hair, don't. We won't hold it against you. Tonight is perfect timing for me too, I think we are all ready for another get together right about now. It's been a rough month.

    See you soon.

  11. sending you love through the blogosphere

  12. Sorry that this cycle didn't work out the way you wanted. I wish you the best and hope that your new plan yields positive results :)

  13. Here from the Lushary. Sorry to hear you have a headache - you're right, that doesn't exactly help a bad situation.

    On the one hand, I'm sorry you have to move on to other options. On the other, I'm looking forward to the day those other options bring you so much happiness you'll look back and wonder why you wanted it any other way.


  14. I second the rec for Excedrin Migraine. That stuff can kill anything.

    You look adorable in your chair with Molly, by the way! The big smile totally blinded me to any hair issues.

    It's great to hear you have a plan, and I hope you will share as much as your are comfortable sharing with us.

  15. I am so sorry the treatments didn't work. I had been praying for you.

    I am not sure what route you are planning to take now, but keep us updated.

    Get to feeling better!

  16. Mel sent me over to chat. We just finished our final donor egg cycle and are dealing with a very low beta (13!) Retest tomorrow, but not much hope. Anyway, our next step is donor embryo. I am happy to share the little I know. (Or just commiserate about how much this all sucks.) I (gasp) don't have a blog, but feel free to e-mail me at (((HUGS)))

  17. I'm so sorry that I am horribly late on this. I so wished this cycle had a different ending. sigh. I'm sad.

    I hope the headaches are getting better. A piece of assvice - try rubbing peppermint oil/extract on your temples or dab some on a tissue and sniff it for a bit. It might help.