Friday, October 19, 2007

For Those Still Tuning In . . .

Yup, this is me. I'm still being a great, big chicken. I'm 11 days past 3 day transfer, which means that I am 14 days past ovulation. And I'm still too chicken to pee on a stick. And it's too late to do it today, since it's too late for the whole "first morning" thing. And tomorrow is beta day, so there's really no use to doing it tomorrow.

I still have all sorts of progesterone symptoms which are doing nothing to help my state of mind. And I have to keep reminding myself that none of this means anything.

All day long I go back and forth from thinking that this did work, to thinking that it didn't. I don't get upset when I think it didn't work, I just plan my next line of attack. I research our next options. I research jobs for next year. And then I'm back to thinking that it did work and thinking about what life will be like then. I think about how I will be 11 weeks pregnant when the due date for the miscarried baby comes along. My head is a really exhausting place to be. Hence my afternoon naps and falling asleep during prime time TV.

So one more day, my friends. Hang in there with me.

15 comments:

  1. Hey there, I'm sending you some positive vibes for your beta day. I hope, hope, hope it worked!!

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  2. I have everything possible crossed for you! I'm going to remember your resolve in my EIGHTEEN DAY wait after my transfer. Yep - that is how long my clinic waits to do the beta - and they really don't want us to do any HPTs.

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  3. Sending you bucketfuls of happy, good luck for tomorrow!

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  4. wishing you oodles and oodles of luck tomorrow ... I don't think you are chicken AT ALL ... those Pee sticks are intimidating ;)

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  5. Good luck tomorrow! I was also afriad of the pee sticks. I felt like you, as long as I didn't see a negative I still had reason to hope! Can't wait to hear your good news tomorrow! (lots of positive vibes!)

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  6. I am so excited and so nervous for you! Hoping for a nice number tomorrow. Fingers crossed over here :-)
    And well done for not pee'ing on a stick! That is iron resolve.

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  7. I'm sending a lot of luck, sweetie.

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  8. Eek! I am in utter amazement at your restraint - you are braver than I am, lady! Okay, you had better post IMMEIDATELY when you get those great results tomorrow! I can't wait to celebrate!

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  9. Sending you TONS of prayers for a BFP tomorrow!!!! I can't wait to hear back! I'll be on pins and needles!!!!!

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  10. I am hoping and praying that your Beta's come back so high you think" OMG, what if it's like quadruplets or something!!" LOL! Really though, I hope that tomorrow brings wonderful news your way!

    And thanks for being so sweet to me this month. It has been a crappy month but hopefully the methyltrexate will have resolved things and we can get on with it!

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  11. Hanging in and hoping for the best!!!!

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  12. I'm impressed you made it this far without poas - well done. I don't think I could have done it.

    I'll be thinking of you tomorrow as you get your news. I wish you the best of luck. We are all here for you.

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  13. Ack, I'm so holding out for you!!!

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  14. Praying, hoping and more praying and hoping for you tonight! It was GREAT seeing you today, and I can't wait to check up on you tomorrow!!

    And no matter what, major hugs and support from me headed your way!!

    Staying positive and hopeful for you! :)

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  15. Anonymous4:30 AM

    Sending out positive vibes...you must update immediately!

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