If you haven't read yesterday's post, you may want to check that out before continuing here.
First a note, apparently not even a dose of Percoset can keep me sleeping through the night. How much does that suck!?!?!
Brian has filled in a couple of gaps about how things really were when I came out of the anesthesia. I remembered just a few tears and calling for Brian. Apparently that was not the case, which is why Brian was so unprepared for what he saw. His take is that I was crying hysterically and putting on quite a show. And babbling about some pretty heartbreaking things. And it was all much worse for him than it was for me because I can't even remember any of it. Oh, and all of this happened with an oxygen mask still clamped over my face.
I want you to know that I know that this whole experience is not some grand tragedy. In the grand scheme of things it isn't that big of a deal. Friday afternoon, after learning of my miscarriage, I learned of this story from back home in Orange County. (Yes, I am a regular troll of OCRegister.com and this is the most heartbreaking story ever). Check it out if you are not familiar with it at Three Angels . (Just click on "Three Angels" to go to the story.)
I am warning you, it is a tear jerker, and my heart just breaks for this family. My friend Melanie has written a wonderful post about it. Just click on her name to read it. And the post below has some of the cutest pictures of her Puggle puppy, who as it seems is more beable than pug. Hehehe! I like to remind her that at least she doesn't have a pure blood beagle, complete with pure blood beagle naughtiness, like Molly.
Just one last thing, because I am seriously having trouble piecing together thoughts and I think it's time for me to go back to work. See what I mean? I need to go back to BED! Anyway, I would just like to mention that while a miscarriage sucks at any time of the year, there seems to be a particular suckiness to having it happen in the days before Mother's Day. A Mother's Day when it felt so close to finally joining the club. That's all.