As you may be able to imagine, these have been some emotional days for me. Brian and I were talking and we were honestly surprised by the amount of ruckus caused by my post last week. Correspondence has occurred both on and off the blog, most of it good, though some very troubling. For the most part we have been able to come to an understanding with those close to us. I have been touched by the kindness and understanding expressed to me by so many, and alternately, hurt by the lack of understanding by one.
I do apologize to anyone who had their feelings hurt by me writing about how I felt, and what my reactions and fears in a given situation are. It was never my intent to hurt anyone or question anyone else's views or motives, but rather to write about how I was affected. However, I make no apology for feeling how I do. It is where I am.
Due to this unintended uproar I have even considered just how open and honest I want to continue to be here. I've considered starting a second, much more private, blog with a limited, specific readership. And I've decided against it. At this time, anyhow. I've also decided to keep blogging the way I always have . . . with as much honesty and sensitivity as I can. I have never used this space to condemn others or to spread lies. I make it a policy never to discuss matters of national security, and I don't write about things that are somebody else's personal business. Yes, I have used this space to voice personal thoughts and feelings, but not private thoughts and feelings that I don't want anyone to know. I use this space for everything from our mundane day to day happenings to our hopes and fears, joys and sorrows. And I'll continue to do so. Anyone who doesn't like it simply doesn't have to read. That said, I hope you'll all stay with me as I really enjoy the company!