We would like another child. Adoption is really the only realistic way that can happen. However, after having such a successful outcome with Andrew, considering it again really isn't so easy. In fact, it is much more difficult. Last year it was a very easy decision to make and we just went with it. As you know, we had a great experience all the way around and really couldn't have asked for anything better.
However, since there aren't any guarantees in life, we know that should we pursue adoption again we risk all of the scary stories we have heard. And maybe I'm just not the risk taker that I was last year. I loved, and love, our agency. They were fantastic and really held our hands through the whole process. I would use them again in a heatbeat and I regulary refer them to my friends. I just don't know if I'm willing to be tied to a phone again and feel like I'm always waiting for something.
As an aside here, my thoughts aren't really coming out right at all. Well, they sort of are, but it just isn't sounding right. Ugh.
We want to adopt again. It's the waiting and work that leads up to it that seems so daunting, and risky, right now. Does the fact that I'm leary mean that I don't want this badly enough? I really don't think so. It's just that for some reason I'm hesitant to just jump right in. I like things how they are right now, but I also know that since adoption is so unpredictable you need to allow some time.
I'm still having trouble here, even just explaining why I'm having trouble. I guess now you will understand why I feel like I'm peeking over the edge.