Random ramblings of life in our household . . . and our journey through infertility and our arrival on the other side as we live life with our precious little boy brought to us through the gift of open domestic adoption.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
The Call
I called B to tell him what I had agreed to, and he was OK with it. Truthfully, I didn't think about it much over the rest of the day. After all, we had only been waiting for 3 months and I was prepared to be patient.
That evening I went to my Resolve infertility support group meeting at Mimi's. Part way through my cell phone rang. It was B. There was good news and bad news. The good news? We had been chosen. The bad? Well, we may have to postpone our vacation to Alaska that was scheduled for 2 days later. Let me just tell you that I didn't consider that to be bad news!
Within a mere month we could say with complete certainty that the call had indeed been THE call. My sweet baby boy is now 11 months old. A year ago it was impossible to know the sheer joy that THE call would bring to us over the next year. But from here, from now . . . it was THE call that brought joy back to our lives and made everything right with the world.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
The Homestretch
First of all, before I leave you in suspense any longer, Andrew is home with us and doing well. The birth parents signed the severance of parental rights paperwork this morning, so he is ours, all ours. We will have a court finalization hearing towards the end of the year.
So, back to where we left off . . . Thursday was a day when emotions were running high. Not necessarily ours, but the birth mom's especially. She was really missing her husband and family at that point and struggling with recovering from the c-section. She had also become a little too attached to me. She had me stay with her in the hospital both Tuesday and Wednesday nights, on top of all the time since last Saturday since she had been there. It was really hard to see her so upset and miserable. I spent Thursday night at home, and she spent the night in the hospital by herself.
Early Friday morning our social worker called to tell me that our birth mom was being discharged in a couple of hours. This was a surprise as the plan had been for Saturday. I called the NICU to find out when Andrew would be ready to go home, and they weren't sure yet. By the time I got to the hospital our birth family was getting ready to leave. B and I went to see the baby while they finished up in the room. Our social worker got there and met with the birth family while we went to wait in the cafeteria. Shortly after our social worker met up with us to tell us what had been happening. The power of attorney paperwork had been signed, allowing us to bring Andrew home. The birth parents would going to the NICU to spend time with him. When they were ready to say good-bye they would let the social worker know if they also wanted to say good-bye to us. After about 10 minutes with the baby they were ready to leave and meet us in the lobby on the way out. It was very emotional, and there were tears to be had by all. After they left we went and spent more time with the baby. It was determined that he would be discharged later in the afternoon.
We finally brought Andrew home at about 6pm. Our first evening home was a little emotional, but oh-so-good. It was a little nerve wracking knowing that the meeting for the severance paperwork was scheduled for this morning.
This morning our social worker called to say that they were all still on for the meeting to sign papers. It was scheduled for 10:00. Time slowed to a crawl and by 11:00 I was completely going nuts. Finally, around 11:15 we heard from our social worker. We were finally officially parents. The wildest part of this ride is finally over and the real work, and fun, begins.
And now we continue to get to know our sweet baby. Here he is waving bye-bye as we left the hospital.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
What a Difference a Day Makes
Oh, I forgot the most exciting part! Yesterday once he was stabilized after being off the oxygen and having a bunch of tubes and tape removed we were able to hold him. We had the birth parents go into the nursery first to spend some time with Andrew. Afterwards, B and I got to have our turns holding him. It was the most wonderful feeling in the world, though it still feels a little unbelievable that he is actually going home with us.
Late last night the birth mom and I went in and just sat with him and talked with him for a long time. She is so incredibly happy that they have chosen open adoption. Her peace of mind with this decision is wonderful to see. She believes that Andrew was created to be with us. Apparently one of the nurses asked her why they were placing Andrew for adoption and she answered that this is just how it was meant to be. And I get it. I totally get it. We feel the exact same way.
So, without further delay, here he is! The picture is a little dark, since the nursery is very dim, but I didn't want to piss him off with the flash while he was sleeping so nicely. Don't you just love those cheeks and those sweet little lips?!??!?!

Wednesday, July 23, 2008
He's Here!
He was born last night, at 36 weeks, by c-section. Though still a preemie, he weighed in at a whopping 6 pounds, 1 ounce and 18 inches long. You see him above with B's freakishly large hand.
Because he is a preemie, and also a c-section baby, he is having a little trouble with his lungs in that he has some fluid in them. He was working hard last night to clear them out but finally had to be put on oxygen. Today they are weaning him off already. They also had to put an IV in his sweet little head so that he can get some nutrients. He is too busy breathing to be bothered with feeding right now. They expect him to be doing just fine in a couple of days.
What a wild ride!
I would guess that the relinquishment paperwork can be signed sometime on Saturday. We don't have a day yet that we can expect to head home.
Please continue to pray for Andrew, the birth family, and us.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Still Waiting
Waiting.
Waiting.
Waiting.
It's kind of like Christmas Eve when you were a kid and the anticipation of Christmas Day was almost too much to bear. Only with this, Christmas Day never seems to get here. Each day we wake up and it's still Christmas Eve. It's sort of like Christmas Eve meets Groundhog Day (the movie).
And to distract myself I'm starting to get my classroom set up. It's not really working.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
A Little More Excitement
We are glad that she is in the hospital where she can be closely monitored and kept comfortable. Hopefully she will be able to sleep and get some rest tonight. I'm sure we will be over to visit her tomorrow. The goal is to keep her pregnant until Monday.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
A Little Excitement
Let me remind you, our birth mom has been contracting since 32 weeks and has been hooked up to a pump providing medication to stop the contractions. She has been hooking up to a monitor several times a day to monitor contractions and has daily contact with the nurses. Well, this morning she was contracting really badly during the ultrasound. They wanted to check her to see if she was dilated, however, when the nurse practitioner heard from the tech what was going on nobody wanted to touch her and aggravate things. Instead, we were sent over to Labor and Delivery at the hospital. Fortunately, it's also the same hospital where B works. They checked her right away and found that while she is 80% effaced she wasn't dilated at all. The decision was made to continue to try to stop her labor, so they just pumped her full of more medicine and monitored her for a few hours. We were able to leave around 3pm. We know that her contractions won't be stopped, but if they can be minimized that should hold things off for a little bit. If she has another flare up we are all heading back to the hospital. On Monday she has an appointment to see her doctor and at that time she should be able to stop the meds since she will be 36 weeks by then. So, we are pretty much expecting to see a baby by next weekend.
While hanging around at hospitals really isn't the most fun thing to do, it was actually a pretty fun day. We had lots of time to visit and get to know each other better. We are both very comfortable with each other and get along really well.
Wow, it's getting so close now!
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
What You Really Want to Know
State of Mind: Overwhelmed!
Holy Cow! We are going to have a baby soon!
On Thursday I had lunch with my friend, Heather, and afterwards we went shopping for baby gear. Well, I suppose "browsing" would be more accurate, as I didn't actually buy anything. I just couldn't make a decision. That evening B and I went out again and found ourselves at the giant baby stuff store. We finally decided to start a registry because I kept making the same decisions over and over again and I needed to find a way to stay organized. However, after just a little while we needed to leave because I just couldn't be in the store anymore.
Holy Cow! We are going to have a baby soon!
On Friday, the 4th of July, we both stayed home all day to work on various projects. B cleaned out the closet in the office, and I removed all of my scrapbooking stuff from the room that will one day house a real live baby and moved it into another guest room. All that remains in the room is a twin bed and dresser, and a bookshelf with toys and books in the closet.
Holy Cow! We are going to have a baby soon!
On Saturday I went and did more shopping with my mom. She bought us a couple of things for the baby, and I did a little more registering. Again, after a little while I just had to get out of the giant baby stuff store. So, we had some lunch and then went to Kohls to shop for a "coming home" outfit for the baby. Later that afternoon B and I went over to the birth parent's home for a vist. We met their kids, as well as his parents. At first we were nervous, but we were quickly put at ease when we were hugged and congratulated by his parents. The entire family is wonderful and we consider ourselves to blessed to have been matched with them. It was really nice getting to know each other in a casual setting.
Holy Cow! We are going to have a baby soon!
Sunday was actually a nice, relaxing day. We went to church, ran a couple of errands, then spent some time relaxing at home before going to my parent's house for dinner.
Holy Cow! We are going to have a baby soon!
Yesterday I tagged along to our birth mom's OB appointment. Unfortunatley, the doctor didn't have time to do an ultrasound, but we did get to hear a nice strong heartbeat. Even better, the doctor isn't worried about pre-term labor anymore, since she is now 34 weeks. Our birth mom is still on medication to slow down her contractions, though it isn't working well. Next week there will be another ultrasound to see if the baby is still breach or not. If so, a c-section will be scheduled for when she reaches 38 weeks, which will be around Aug. 5th. Oh my gosh! That's so close! And it could be closer since she delivered her last child at 36 weeks! See? Completely overwhelming!
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Back in the Lower 48
We got home mid-morning today and I spent some time getting situated in the house with a few groceries and going through the mail and such. Then, I talked to and hired an attorney to work on some of the adoption paperwork for us. This afternoon I ran a couple of errands and then met up with our social worker for about an hour. She is simply awesome! She had some really good feedback for us from our birth parents and then spent some time covering what we can expect from here on out. This is, quite simply, the best situation she has ever facilitated. She even told me today that the birth parents remind her of a younger version of B and me. I will be going along to a doctor's appointment on Monday with both our birth mom and the social worker. I'm really looking forward to it. There will be an ultrasound, which will be really exciting, though I'm a little worried about how I'll handle it. Lastly, our social worker told me that it is time for us to call around and find a pediatrician. This just seems so weird.
Afterwards B and I went to the giant baby stuff store. We actually bought a car seat. We looked at other things, but I just couldn't bring myself to buy anything yet, and setting up a registry just seem too scary. But hey, we did buy a car seat, because after all, without that we can't even bring a baby home from the hospital.
I so appreciate all of the support and encouragement I've received here, as well as all of the helpful hints and tips. I'm keeping a list of everything and it is really helping, so keep it up!
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Hurry Up and Wait
So, I bet you imagine that that I am busily cleaning out the eventually-this-will-be-a-baby-room room. And doing tons of shopping, researching and comparing baby products. And you probably figure I am busy googling and reading about how to actually care for a real live baby. Well, you are 100% completely wrong.
Instead, I am going nose to nose with moose; searching for the ever elusive bear sighting; traipsing across trails, hills and streams of nearly freezing water just to touch a real, live glacier; cruising around icebergs; and browsing through traditional native dwellings. What? All of this is in Arizona? No sillies, 'fraid not. We are here in Alaska, the last frontier, on a big family vacation. What timing, huh? We planned this trip to visit B's sister and her family months ago. We left dinner the other night with our birth parents and went directly to the airport, arriving here at 1:00 am. And here we will be for another week yet, hoping and praying and wishing that we don't get a call to rush back to the "lower 48". See? We are even starting to sound like the locals now. And get this, there seriously is not a big, giant famous baby store in the whole state. Just so you know, this is torture for a planner like me.
But still, B and I are enjoying ourselves and this really happy time. I'll be sure to share pictures after we return. Until then, I ask that you please share some of your "must have" baby items with me, because I seriously have no idea where to start.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
The Thrills Keep A-Comin'
So here's how it went down . . .
Yesterday at 4:30 we met the parents, our social worker, and the owner of the agency at a local restaurant. At first we all were pretty nervous, even though B likes to say that he was absolutely fine. After a couple of minutes it was just like having dinner with friends. We all really hit it off. We consider ourselves to very blessed to have been chosen by this couple. They are mature beyond their years, compassionate, genuine, well spoken, and we absolutely love them. An hour and fifteen minutes we were on our way out, fully matched, with ear-to-ear grins.
So now we wait, and pray that the baby remains healthy and that she can make it to 36 weeks. She is at 32 right now, but experiencing contractions that medication isn't really helping.
Stick around, it should be a fun ride!
(Oh, and you may have noticed that I have started to make a few changes around here in order to make the real me a little less "google-able".)
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Mr. Toad's Wild Ride (AKA "Are We Matched?")
Please say a little prayer for us, the baby, and the parents as we begin this wild ride.
